My apathy for Millikin is no one's fault but my own. Immediately someone will try to take the blame (citing my constant attendance and attention).
Agreed: my mind is not on academia, Decaturian, PMA, Honors, MENC, U-choir, OneVoice, family. None of these compel me to be. None of these inspire me to achieve. None so much inspire me to stay, waiting for that stamp of approval on my education by so many that know nothing of the matter.
Friends, friend, one: my only reason(s?) for not giving up when I encounter adversity, shutting down with one more page to go, giving in when I feel crushed.
To God, bog and the rest, a plea: that some day I'll know how to thank through action and be able to do so without crying.